Hello wonderful readers! Happy 2017!
I haven’t posted here very much for a while because I had some major life changes.
As you may know, I spent two weeks in Scotland taking a play that I directed and produced. For as long as I can remember I have wanted to see the world and travel. I spent a long time pushing this desire away.
I always told myself that I didn’t have the time to travel, I didn’t have the money, and I didn’t have anyone to go with me.
These are all lies I told myself to let myself keep playing small. And while playing small, I didn’t have to take risks, I didn’t have to step into who I am truly meant to be, I didn’t have to risk disappointment.
I know what to expect from my day to day life when I am at home. I am stubborn and independent and will fight to live my life the way I want to. I will work really hard to be able to keep up appearances and look like I am having a fun, fulfilled life.
But under it all, I have hopes and dreams that are going unmet. And I am tired of trying to stuff those down because I am afraid of failure. And I am finally ready to walk my talk.
I recently quit my day job. It was draining me in all ways. I was trying too hard to fit in to something that wasn’t right for me anymore. My brain was making unconscious mistakes that affected the people I worked for (nothing major, don’t worry)and it was causing me to question myself. I am not careless, so why was I making careless mistakes? Why was I spending all my energy complaining about where I worked and doing nothing about it?
So I decided to leave. It shocked a lot of people, and some (like my mother) were not surprised at all.
I decided to become a life coach. And I am loving it. It is honestly one of the best decisions I have ever made.
I am a Martha Beck Life Coach In Training, and it is the easiest work I have ever done. Don’t get me wrong, it is hard work. But this feels incredibly natural, like I am truly in the flow.
For me, it’s like when I am dancing something really familiar, like swing or anything else that really follows the rhythm of the music. I let my brain go, feel the beat and feel my partner. I just listen for the cues from my partner and I let everything go. The moves flow and I can’t stop smiling. Even when I mess up, I am just so happy to be moving. There is no judgement about how I look or what is “right.” I just keep dancing.
Coaching is the same thing for me. I tap into something else, something bigger outside of me and I let it flow. Since I am still learning, there are more bumps in the flow but it still feels natural.
Part of what really drew me into coaching was that it is something I can do while I travel. I have denied this deep longing I have inside to see the world. The more I think about it, the more I remember being a kid that always dreamed about seeing the world and experiencing new cultures. And I need to honor that and build a life that can honor that part.
It’s all about alignment. (can I get a Hell Yeah for alignment?)
So I went on a solo road trip across the United States for 5 weeks. It was amazingly transformative, and I am sharing my reflections on the travel at my new website that you can find here.
For now I will continue to keep writing here from time to time, and some day I will probably link the two sites. I’m not quite ready to link this site since many of the stories I share are deeply personal and intimate. And there is something that feels ok with being that intimate with all you strangers, but not to all my friends just yet.
If you are looking for support for something in your life, you can also use my blog to get a little information about my coaching and I would welcome the opportunity to work with you. Right now, I am doing it at an unbelievable rate since I am still in training. So if you feel called, or are thinking that “there must be a better way” a coach can help you with that.
Until next time I hope you come follow my journey on my new website and I would love to hear from you about where you have felt a little out of alignment? Where do you think you need to show up differently so you can be more you? And what is one small action you can do to change that?